I confess I struggle against a powerful addiction.
My obsession inhibits my effectiveness as a father and husband, obstructs my influence for Jesus and limits my fulfillment in life.
It is sad when I think how much my habit has robbed me of.
I can’t remember exactly how I got enslaved by this addiction, but I know it has been an anchor that I’ve dragged around for many years now.
Today, I’m confessing it to you as part of my effort to break free.
Bringing My Addiction into the Light
I am not addicted to drugs or alcohol. My addiction is not so obvious, but it is just as sinister.
I am addicted to comfort.
I’m not seeking some kind of medical diagnosis for my condition. I don’t want anyone to make up a new syndrome name for what I struggle with, but I also don’t think you should scoff at what I’m saying.
How My Addiction Has Held Me Back
Merriam-Webster offers this definition of addiction – the persistent compulsive use of a substance known by the user to be harmful.
Technically, I guess comfort is not a substance, but it is something I persistently and compulsively use and I’ve come to realize it is harmful.
My addiction to comfort:
- Has kept me from speaking out boldly for Christ due to fear that someone might reject what I say which would make me uncomfortable.
- Has kept me from participating in a small group Bible study because the time it was held was inconvenient for me.
- Has kept me from getting up off the couch to play with my daughters because I was “tired”.
- Has kept me from reaching out to friends in need because I didn’t know what to say and didn’t want to feel awkward.
- Has kept me from loving people more deeply because things could get messy.
I could go on ad nauseam listing the ways that I’ve let my own comfort stand in the way of me being a better Christ Follower, friend, neighbor, husband, father and person.
But, I won’t put you through that misery because I’m sure you see my point that my comfort has entangled me, held me back and prevented me from living the life that Jesus intends for me.
I’ve idolized my comfort. I’ve put it first in my life – even before God.
I’ve done this for years – persistently and compulsively.
And I would argue that I’m not alone.
Throwing Off Everything that Hinders
Launching this website marks a new chapter in my life. I’m turning over a new leaf and striving to be something better than I’ve been in the past. I’m following the example the writer of Hebrews proclaimed.
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. Hebrews 12:1-2 (NIV)
You are my cloud of witnesses.
Before you, I am throwing off my addiction, my sin that has entangled me.
I am going to run the race marked out for me.
I will do my best from this day forward to copy Jesus.
Will you join me?
Perhaps your addiction is different than mine, still you can choose today to drive a stake in the ground marking the day you began to follow Jesus with all your heart, soul, mind and strength.
If you’ll join me in this quest, then please leave a comment on my site letting me know and declaring before a cloud of witnesses your intention to throw off everything that hinders. May God bless and keep you!