I have wrong thinking that holds me back. It is sad, but true. In fact, I’m sure I have a lot more than I want to admit. You’ll just have to trust me on this because we can’t go into it all of it today, but I do want to share one recent aha moment.
The Wrong Thinking that Wrecks Me
As I’ve said, there is a cost to wrong thinking. It kept the Israelites wandering around in the desert for 40 years on what should have been an 11-day journey.
I can relate.
My wrong thinking has held me back from the Promised Land for a long time too. This verse sums up my problem.
Patient endurance is what you need now, so that you will continue to do God’s will. Then you will receive all that he has promised.
Hebrews 10:36 NLT
Patient endurance is not something I do well. I want what I want and I want it now. This is true when I’m waiting on God as in any other situation. When He makes me wait (for His comfort, His guidance, His healing, His blessing, His answer), I regress to being a spiritual baby. I whine, cry and fuss incessantly. Then I give up. I fail to continue to do His will. I say, “I just can’t do this any longer!” Therefore, I never reach the Promised Land.
I actually wrote about this very subject a couple of years ago in Be Still and Know that I am God. Apparently, I’m a slow learner because my lack of patience is still stealing my joy and causing me tremendous frustration.
Recently, I’ve been struggling mightily with this same issue. And I’ve been
praying complaining to God about it.
The Truth that Defeats My Wrong Thinking
And, once again through His never-ending grace, God is trying to get me to see the truth that I so desperately need to grasp. He led me to reread “Battlefield of the Mind” by Joyce Meyer. In this book, there is a chapter devoted to patient endurance called “Don’t make me wait for anything; I deserve everything immediately.”
I hope this helps you as much as it has me. Here’s the truth I’m trying to learn:
- Patience is not my ability to wait, but my ability to keep a good attitude while I wait. The waiting part is not something I can control. My attitude toward it is.
- Patient obedience (obedience with a good attitude) toward God’s will and timing is how I successfully get to the Promised Land. Please review the verse above from Hebrews.
- There may be a little suffering while I wait. Perseverance during this period will mature me so I can receive God’s promises without them causing me more harm than good (James 1:4). Knowing there is a purpose to the waiting helps my attitude toward it.